struggling

I am in SUCH a funky state right now.

I have been taking an online photography class, which I was SO excited to participate in, but now that I am in the middle of it I am feeling like it may have not been the best choice for myself.  I have lost all sense of confidence and can't make left from right.  It's not even the class.  The class is so informative and I have learned so much about myself and my photography... it's just me... I can't keep up.  I am lagging in everything I do.  Maybe I am trying desperately to hold on to what's going on that I can't move forward and grow?

I don't know... I just know I need this funk to move on.  I need my head back.