It's so weird to be sitting at my computer with my little dog in my lap and enjoying the rain on this day. In my pregnancy with Mason, I was already in the ICU recovery at this point in the day. My mom was watching over me. Jonathan was following and keeping up with sweet Mason in the NICU. I feel so much anxiety and fear on this day. This is the MOST pregnant I have ever been. This is full term in my crazy brain. I feel practically overdue. That means I am a little on edge. Lots of crying fits and misunderstandings and whining and whatever else comes with a person who is freaking out. I am trying so very hard to put on my big girl pants and get excited for the road ahead, but it's really going to take A LOT of strength. Strength that can only be given through something else... more specifically someone else.
Lord give me strength and peace... make me a little more at ease so that I don't drive away my husband, family and friends. You are my stronghold. I will trust in you.
I need to see this little guy and give him a million hugs and kisses, but in at least 7 weeks... I'm definitely not in a hurry!
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