On the night you were born... by Nancy Tillman

"On the night you were born,

The moon smiled with such wonder

That the stars peeked in to see you

And the night wind whispered,

“Life will never be the same.”

Because there had never been anyone like you…ever in the world.

So enchanted with you were the wind and the rain

That they whispered the sound of your wonderful name.

It sailed through the farmland

High on the breeze…

Over the ocean…

And through the trees…

Until everyone heard it

And everyone knew

Of the one and only ever you.

Not once had there been such eyes,

Such a nose,

Such silly, wiggly, wonderful toes.

When the polar bears heard,

They danced until dawn.

From faraway places,

The geese flew home.

The moon stayed up until

Morning next day.

And none of the ladybugs flew away.

So whenever you doubt just how special you are

And you wonder who loves you, how much and how far,

Listen for geese honking high in the sky.

(They’re singing a song to remember you by.)

Or notice the bears asleep at the zoo.

(It’s because they’ve been dancing all night for you!)

Or drift off to sleep to the sound of the wind.

(Listen closely…it’s whispering your name again!)

If the moon stays up until morning one day,

Or a ladybug lands and decides to stay,

Or a little bird sits at your window awhile,

It’s because they’re all hoping to see you smile…

For never before in story or rhyme

(not even once upon a time)

Has the world ever known a you, my friend,

And it never will, not ever again…

Heaven blew every trumpet

And played every horn

On the wonderful, marvelous

Night you were born."

Mason, 

I will never get that night back... that beautiful night you were born.  You changed so much inside me with just one breath and for that I am forever grateful.  Even though you were born 10 weeks early, all of the doctors and nurses tried really hard to make your debut a beautiful and exciting experience and it definitely was.  We smiled and beamed with pride because you were our beautiful boy with endless possibilities ahead of you.  

My heart breaks every day for you and all the others that didn't get to know and grow with their families just like you.  Cutting such a new life short is always difficult to understand and deal with.  I often dream of what 3 year-old Mason would look like...Your hair, your smile, your personality.  I think about whether or not you and Noah would play well together. What would your favorite food be?  What color would you prefer? Would you favor your right hand? Would you love swimming?  I think about these things all the time because we never got to know you. I try so hard not to be a complete mess, but it's really hard because I miss you so terribly much.  

You will always be so special and so loved.

Love always and forever, 
Mommy.